The ’emotional wreck’ stage

So, like many of us dog owners, I wear my heart right on my sleeve and Harrison is my whole world (aside from my better half, of course!)

To learn he has epilepsy and see him endure these seizures again and again is the kind of thing I wouldn’t wish on anyone, dog owner or beloved dog. It is truly horrific! Worst of all, I feel an overwhelming sadness for my oblivious little pooch, who aside from those terrible phases immediately before and after a seizure (during which he is absolutely terrified and I am just heartbroken) is perfectly happy and his usual self. I wish I could explain to him, make him understand that the awful feeling will pass and that he’s safe and we’re there and we’ll do all we can to help him whatever happens. But I can’t and that’s one of the worst things. If he was my child I might be able to explain when he reached a certain age, it might not make it any less scary but it would be worth a go.

The best thing is that the seizure itself he is unconscious and has no idea what’s happening – thank goodness! This part is worse for us, having to witness that and feel so helpless.

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The first seizure

That first seizure was actually not the worst one. Yes, the first one is definitely very scary and everything is unknown, but it feels perfectly reasonable that it could be a one off and then the vet leads you to believe that it could be a one off too. Then, your worst fears are realised and it keeps happening 😦 the second time was by far the worst. It catches you totally off guard, even though you have gone away and done your research, you’re still clinging on to the idea that it could have been a one off. Or at least, that it wouldn’t happen again for a long while. Witnessing your poor little pooch have a fit is truly horrific, you feel totally helpless, they are terrified and worst of all, you can’t explain to them what the hell is going on.

Since 23rd February (15 days ago), Harrison has had 7 seizures. The vet advised after the first one that any more frequent than once a month would require lifelong medication to manage the condition. So, he has started his first tablet trial today, something called pexion. Really hope it works out for him, otherwise we’ll have to try many more to find the most suitable and effective drug for him, or a combination. Personally I am fairly opposed to human medication, let alone for my animal. I prefer a more natural and holistical approach wherever possible, but the risk of long term damage is too high with such regular seizures, or by having several in quick succession (called “clusters”), so we have to try him with medication now.

The good news is that even though the condition is incurable, a dog with epilepsy can still lead a full and happy life, if you can learn how to manage their unique needs properly – every dog is different. So, this is the start of a new chapter for us!